After the final conflict is over, it's time for the closure. But where do you start? You're about to finish something you've spent months, maybe a year or maybe even years groveling over and pouring your heart and soul into. Do you really want to end it? If you're like me, you want it to be over and successful—but at the same time you're just about in tears.
With my first book, I stayed up two hours past by bedtime because I was on the final chapter. When I finished I was proud. I was about one hundred feet tall until morning. I got my parents up at one in the morning to tell them, "My book is done! Now to send to the publishers!" See last post. xD
Not quite that easy. I'm on my fifth rewrite of Flame Dancer. The fifth! And I love it each and every time I rewrite it. I've learned to look forward to rewriting it, because I get to relive the adventure with them.
But now I'm almost done with Flame Dancer: Final Mix (the offical version), the one that I won't edit until someone advises me to afterward (like a writer-friend, or an agent him/herself)... it's almost like a sense of losing a best friend. Part of me wants to forget some corrections in order to go back and fix them later, just to keep living the adventure with my characters. Maybe it's just me, but it's a very sad and happy experience for me to end a book.
I guess I could compare it to an athlete playing... football or something, and they run the ball the whole hundred yards. Your heart's pounding, your blood's pumping, and you're about to do the tap-dance you see football players do all the time on TV whenever they get a touchdown. You're on the verge of screaming to the world, "I am the king!!"
That's how it is for me. But at the same time my heart aches at the thought of ending it. Just thinking about the Flame Cycle makes me feel like I've been shot down. But I have a while yet—a long while, and I'm holding onto that thought.
Just another thing I thought I might get off my chest before I go to bed! [And figure out when I'm going to do my geometry homework tomorrow, since I spent the time to finish it writing this... (; ]
Listening to: Take Me Away - Taking Dawn
Reading: I Am Number Four - Pittacus Lore
Quote: "And so the hound weaves the final chapter in this tale of life..." - Dirge of Cerberus:Final Fantasy VII
NOTE: I don't proofread these before I post them. Sorry if any errors glare out at you like they do me—I don't know how to edit this thing yet. :P