This is my first IWSG...yay! *Throws confetti, hangs streamers*Hosted by the wonderful Alex Cavanaugh, go take a look at his stuff if you haven’t before!
Now for the insecurities LOL.
Wow, uh, where to begin...
On a low note, I’ve always felt really inferior when I write. I always feel like I’m not as good as I like to think I am, that I’m kidding myself when I finish something and wonder how in the world something like this could ever get an agent’s interest. That this may be just a hobby and something that’s never going to make it farther than that. I also feel like I’m not good enough to tell others what I think too—when my critique partners send me their stuff sometimes I feel like I don’t have any right to tell them what’s right or wrong with their stuff. Really, what do I know? And then I feel really self-centered for asking people to help me with things after they've already done so much.
On another hand I also just feel really inexperienced. I’ve come SUCH a long way from when I began, but I still have so many things to learn. I expect that, but it seems like the amount of things there are to learn just keeps going on and on, ranging from horrifically simple things I feel like I should’ve known to things I haven’t even heard of. I love learning more and I love being able to continuously improve my manuscript, but I feel bad for the critique partners who are teaching me these things because ... lol read paragraph one.
Uhh... Oh. Here’s a DEFINITE one... My main series, the Flame Cycle, has been in a MAJOR first-drafting slump. I’m drafting book 3/4 but I haven’t done any decent writing for it since March, I think. It’s awful, but I don’t know what to write. My characters aren’t holding my interest like they used to but only in THAT book. I can work on the first one just fine, I can be revising the second one just fine, but at the third it’s like hitting a brick wall. I hate it.
I think those are the only big things that have been bothering me lately. I’ve been having a MAJOR inferiority complex lately. I’m really hoping I get over it soon enough because senior year is going to start soon and I can’t guarantee how much time for writing I’m going to have then. ._.
With that I’ll close...if you read through this entire thing, kudos to you! Have an imaginary cookie! *Offers*
I feel like this post needs something uplifting so here have a pretty and inspirational picture.